A Short Note to my Uterus

Dear Uterus (and Ovaries)
While I am thrilled that you finally decided to let me have a period on Wednesday after 60 days, why on earth did you wait so long?! I had pretty much written you off again, and then you do something right. You're still not getting with the program... I guess the mention of birth control scared you straight again.. for a little while. I'm still going to see a fertility specialist after I see the OB and I'm still going to do the Clomid. You just can't be trusted...

I've Decided

I've made a decision. I'm going to do another cycle of birth control starting this Sunday. A while back, when my OB originally wrote for the BCP, he told me I would most likely have to do 3 months in a row before a RE would start me on Clomid. Since I am most definitely not pregnant, I'm going to go ahead and get things rolling along. I still need to make my rescheduled appointment with my OB and get my referral to the RE, but from what I understand, it sometimes takes a while to get in to see the RE. This way, I'll be ahead of the game. I'm just so frustrated and annoyed with my body at this point. Sigh...

Change of Plans

Well, I survived the morning with my grandmother. And I didn't stab myself in the eye! However, my OB's office called around 12:30 to cancel my appointment for this afternoon. :P He was going to be out delivering babies this afternoon (of all things). I don't have my new work schedule, so I wasn't able to immediately reschedule. I'm hoping he can get me in pretty quickly so we don't drag this out.
Just an update, I'm on CD 49 now and still no signs of a cycle... sigh.

Tomorrow

I think I may just poke myself in the eye. It would be much more entertaining that what I have to deal with tomorrow. First, I have to take my grandmother to the doctor at 9am. I'm not usually aware that there is a 9am, let alone being up in time to be somewhere. Also, my GM (God Bless her) drives me batty. I love her, but she's kind of passive/aggressive and doesn't seem to think before she speaks sometimes. I'm only doing this as a favor to my mom, and she owes me big. After those fun festivities, I get to go do the oh so great annual visit with my OB/GYN. He's great and he's fast, but I don't enjoy getting my insides poked at. The only reason I'm looking forward to seeing him is so that I can get a referral to a specialist and hopefully get this pregnancy show on the road sometime before I'm 30.

Hmmmm....

Where to start? What to say? Well, first off, my niece's chromosomes came back positive for Down Syndrome. Everyone had some tears initially, but seem to be adjusting now. Miss Emily is eating well and gaining weight and that's good progress. I'm hoping that she'll just need a little more time that most kids, but won't have any major health issues. Please continue to pray for Emily and her mommy and daddy.
I did take a HPT on Saturday (10/25). It was negative (sigh... but I'm used to it by now). I'm now on CD 43 and still no signs of a cycle. I'm going to see my OB on 11/3 for my annual visit. I've decided that I'm ready for the referral to a Reproductive Endocrinologist and all that it entails. Bring on the Clomid!

Uncertainty

It seems that the last week or so has been filled with uncertainty. I'm now on CD 34 with no signs of a period. I'm still feeling strange with bouts of random nausea and food aversions. I'm also exhausted. I don't want to test because I don't want to be disappointed. I was discussing all this with a couple of girls at work (one of which has 2 kids). They are convinced that I am pregnant this month. I really want to test, but I really don't. I've decided that if my period doesn't show up by this next Saturday (CD 40) then I will test. Since my cycle has resumed, the longest was 38 days. I'm just going to try and enjoy my trip to Las Vegas with my husband and not worry about it.
The other uncertainty that I'm facing is related to my beautiful new niece. The pediatrician at the hospital had some suspicions that she might have Down Syndrome. It takes 2 weeks for the results to come back, so we should know something by a couple of days before Halloween. Please pray for my sister, her husband, and Emily. Being a nurse, I keep looking at her and analyzing every little thing. Mostly, I'm not convinced that she does have Down's, but every once it a while, I look at her just right and think "maybe". We, of course, won't love her any less. But it still won't be an easy road if the test comes back positive for Down's.

Blessed (Again)

Nothing new to report with me. It's still to early to tell about this month. I've been feeling kind of strange the last 5 or so days (tired, nausea in the evenings, and food I normally like turns me off completely). I'm trying not to let my mind work to much and my imagination run away with me. I just don't want to be disappointed again.

The reason I'm feeling so blessed, is because my sister had her baby on Sunday afternoon (10 days before her due date). Miss Emily Elizabeth was born at 2:42pm 10/12/08. She was 6lb 10oz and 20 inches long. Absolutely beautiful. I'm so proud of my little sister.