4 Weeks Old!

My how time flies. This picture was taken over my shoulder last night of my newphew, Aiden. He's growing up so fast!

Purchase

When I last wrote, I mentioned that I had planned to buy some OPKs and get started using them like my OB/GYN suggested. I bought the Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor off of EBay today. It's "regular" price is $199.99 and I got a brand new one today for $105 with free shipping. It won't be here in time to use this cycle as you are supposed to start on CD (cycle day) 5 or sooner and I'm already on CD 11. My cycle was 38 days this time which isn't too bad in the grand scheme of things I guess. I'm due to see my OB again at the end of October or first of November for my annual visit, so I think I'll just use my new monitor for a few cycles and see if I'm actually ovulating now that I'm cycling. If not, I'll go ahead and see about getting my referral to a RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist). No sense in rushing to see a new doc when I've been going at this almost a year already. It's hard to imagine that had this been easy for me, I would probably have a baby now. Kind of bittersweet in a way. Oh well, I'm sure my day will come. I'll just be that much more in love with my child when God decides it's my turn.

Surprised

This past Thursday, a surprising thing happened. I actually started a period (on my own, unmedicated). This is only my 3rd cycle in 11 months and the 1st cycle that wasn't induced by medication. Apparently, the round of BCP that I did might have actually jump started my body and made it remember what it was supposed to do. Now we just have to see if I'm actually ovulating. I'm going to buy some of those OPKs (ovulation prediction kits) and use them like my OB/GYN recommended before all this mess started. Maybe now that it seems like my body might actually work, I will finally be able to get pregnant. We just have to wait and see...

Torture

So, this weekend I went to Houston for my niece's 6th birthday party. Almost 50% of the adults (friends of my sister in law) at her party were pregnant or had new babies. I've been doing so well with my other sister in law's pregnancy and birth of my nephew and the pregnancy of my sister. But, I almost lost it. I felt that green eyed monster just dying to come out. Luckily, I have pretty good self control. The worst part of it is, I'm having these crazy "symptoms". My boobs HURT. Like, if I accidentally brush them with a bag or purse, I just want to cringe. And now, I'm peeing constantly (like every 2-3 hrs). I feel fine otherwise. I'm sure it's just my mind playing tricks again, but I felt these symptoms before I even went to Houston and saw all these pregnant people. I know in my heart that I'm not pregnant, but my brain can't be convinced not to test. Ugh... I wish this wasn't so hard.