Things Change

And not always for the better. Just when I thought my body was finally going to cooperate (and it still might...) my hormones go wacky again. I last wrote on CD 33. On CD 34 I started what I guess what my period for the my current cycle. It was only 2 days and basically what you experience at the end of your period (dark, old looking, scant). I kept waiting for a "real" period, but no dice. So, I'm now on CD 14 and I spent too long waiting for a period this month, so now I can't use my fertility monitor. Also, it seems that my prolactin might be on the rise again. It's my own fault. I stopped taking my meds a couple of months ago because my cycles had returned and I was feeling better. So, I started taking them again over the weekend. I'm afraid it's back to square one... or so it seems.

Hurry Up Already!

So, I'm on CD 33 now. Still no period. I have, however, been spotting on and off for 2 days now. I keep thinking that the next time I go to the bathroom, my period will be here, but it's not. I'm getting anxious and wish my body would just hurry up and get on with it. I want to use my new fertility monitor and I can't do that until my cycle starts!
On a semi related note, my sister's shower on Saturday turned out well. Of the 19 guests invited, only 7 showed up. It was basically all family and my sister's best friend. I really get annoyed when people can't bother to RSVP. How long does it take to make a phone call and at least let someone know you won't be able to make it? It really only makes a difference in my planning if you can't be there. Oh well. She still got a lot of nice gifts as the people that would have bought the most were there anyway. I hope she enjoyed it.

Glutton for Punishment

I'm throwing my second baby shower in a 3 month time period on Saturday. I love the person I'm throwing it for (my sister) and regardless of my situation, I know I can do this for her. The shower I hosted in June was for my sister in law and it was a little harder as I still didn't have any answers then.
My cycle seems to be moving along. I'm on CD 26 now with no signs of a period yet. My last cycle was 38 days, so I expect more of the same this month. I'm just really ready to get on with it so that I can start using my fertility monitor next month.

Unrelated

I'm not going to talk about pregnancy or babies. On a completely unrelated note, I'm going to talk (just briefly) about work. I love my job and that hasn't changed. I recently applied for a supervisor position at work. Long and stressful interview process. The group of candidates was strong, but I originally thought I might have a shot. That was until one of the supervisors on the regular ICU side put her name into the running for the supervisor on the cardiac side. When that happened, I knew my shot was gone. She's a great person, but I figured that (fair or not) she was a shoe in because she was already a supervisor. And today, I found out I was right. I didn't get the job, and she did. What a bummer. Our manager said that she wanted to mentor me and get me ready to be a supervisor when the next position opens up. She was really excited when I applied and thinks I'll be great at it... one day.
Thanks for letting me ramble. I just needed to get it out...